Last Post deleted, Reasons:

Good evening everybody, the last post was deleted due to a request from the owner of the

writings in it as it relates to his/her own privacy, so, my apologises people, and more to come as

soon as I finish my exams, okay?

peace and Love,

Omar*

My Déja vu

something very weired happened yesterday, actually they are two incidents!

first: I was having an account lesson, suddenly I felt like the same knowledge I am learning, the same situations that happened "liek I saw it before", it went so boring, you know, when u are liek watchnig the same movie for the second time?

second: I was playing a game, there was this conversation and incidents between the two characters , I knew it all, even I was going to predict what will they say, I never played this game before and no one know about this game except me here!

weried, huh?

A new life, a new phase, without you* "dedication"

one more month, and my life as a school student will be over,
one more month, and my life will absolutly change, for good, for bad? how would I know?


but I know one thing, it would be without you, you wanna know why?

when you needed me I was always , always there for you, there has been time that I couldn't possibly reach you, but you know I was there for you, by my heart and my mind

when I needed you, when I wanted to reach you, you closed the door,

you wouldn't bare me when I was feeling down, so down that I only needed your cheerfulness to

enlighten me with the bliss that I got you next to me , but still, you simply refused to , simply so

you would keep feeling happy and peaceful, you throwed away all that times I killed myself to be

with you, stay all nights to do my regular jobs to have time to be with you, which I loved, I still

not sad about those wasted times, bec. , back then, you seemed to worth them.

I wanted to be perfect for you*

I stopped all my bad habbits, you didn't ask me to, but everytime wrote you to me " I am glad that you don't anymore" , every letter of those short words made my day on its own, and it was enough to think about you to actually make me ready to do anything.

one day you said "show me you care" , I did, and you knew I did, but when I asked you to do the same you didn't, simply so I wouldn't ruin your mood*

I have a lot of pride, I confess it, I am a very proud person, well I am actually rather humble, but when it comes to my pride, its off limits, maybe it wasn't your fault, being raised like this, didn't learn how to avoid crushing on mans pride, but still...

I knew from the begining there would a day where I would possible say goodbye, but still, the sweet possiblity and your an-avoided personality attracted me, like a north pole to a south one, only the south this time never mentioned it is going for the north.....

Due to my pride, I am saying goodbye, but my heart won't simply do that, its hard to have a feelings for someone then suddenly BUM! stop it, like if you stopped eating something, its just...not possible!

so is this goodbye? say, you would simply say it is, but who knew, maybe if you overcome your control-wanting personality for one to satisfy my pride, it wouldn't, but, since I know you would never do that, althought I crashed my pride for you, lot of times...still... I know you wouldn't, though it would cheer me up if you only mentioned that you are interested to go through the road.

many lyrics you know, many songs you sing, but I only know one song that is written on the walls of my head

"and did you, ever know...that I had mine on you" *Eyes on me, by Faye Wong, 1998*

" and I want you next to me, always, never ever leave my side" *Beatles, I don't know the title of the song"

End.....*



Small Note: Happy holidays for everyone there in Egypt ^^


translated arabic quote " and never think the bird dances when it's slaughtered bec. of the happines, its rather bec. of the pain........"